Bereaved parents are not ratings fodder

Earlier today I was speechless with amazement at the news that our charity Our Angels' second annual conference for midwives and student midwives, this year in partnership with the University of York Student Midwifery Society, had sold out in just 18 hours. This was an amazing outcome, and one which shows only too clearly how [...]

Why does research scare people?

I really want to get a balance with this blog (and its new little brother, pine_cones_and_study_days on Instagram) between documenting our story and spreading awareness & helping to ensure that there’s good information out there to help reduce the number of families walking in these uncomfortable shoes that you can’t take off. On Monday I [...]

First steps to your ‘new normal’

It’s been a busy few days for Henry and I. Last Tuesday we were at Salford University as I was the first bereaved parent to be involved in their incredible bereavement simulation training days for student midwives. Effectively supporting bereaved parents is the biggest concern for virtually every single one of the many hundreds of [...]

Out of the mouths of babes

So after an unfortunate Saturday morning working in Blackpool (any Saturday mornings working are unfortunate, nothing against Blackpool!), it turned out that my sister-in-law Jodie and my wonderful niece Millie (not that Jodie's not wonderful too, of course) were also in Blackpool on a weekend trip. So I took the opportunity to go and hang [...]

But the world keeps turning…

So, two days after Henry's funeral, I was back at work. I'm lucky, I work in the healthcare industry - it's packed full of people who care, people who have compassion. So every customer I went to see, every hospital I got to, I was surrounded by love and support - and a special shout [...]

The days that followed – numbness and compassion

So how do you prepare yourself to walk out without your child, with just a memory box to help fill your empty arms? You can’t. Nothing can prepare you for that. We got home on that Sunday afternoon, and I can’t remember a thing about the rest of the day. We were both just numb, [...]

Two days to last a lifetime

Two days to make a lifetime of memories. I think I slept for about an hour, maybe two, that night, in a handful of short bursts. Briony was kept in the normal delivery room overnight for observation. I slept in fits and starts in the chair next to her, cuddling Henry, putting him back in [...]

Henry’s birthday – the day our world changed forever

So the sun did come up on Friday 2nd May, 2014. It hadn't felt like it was going to - and it wouldn't be the last time we'd have that feeling. I don't remember what the weather was like, but it was beautiful weather the couple of days before and after (or after Sunday at [...]

Father’s day when your son isn’t here

I'm taking a break from walking you all through our journey in order today to say thanks to Facebook. Thanks tastecard. Thanks a lot Thorntons. Thanks a lot England Rugby. Thanks very much Village Hotels and the Foundry Project (the free pint DOES sound good though). Thanks a lot even the bloody Royal Horticultural Society [...]

In limbo…

This storm wasn’t one that we’d seen gathering on the horizon. We never saw it coming. We were thrown into the middle of it in an instant. We knew above all else we had to stick together like superglue. At that moment, we didn’t know much else. Everything we thought we knew, it turned out [...]